I don't know what's wrong with me. I get so attached to girls even if I don't know them that well. A bit of background on me that might be relevant. Went through all of grade school, was really active had a great body but never took care of myself and was kind of ugly so never had a girlfriend. I liked so many girls but got none of them. Skip to 18 I had my first kiss with a random girl who kissed me out of nowhere that was friends with one of my cousins. I was so attached to this girl and I hadn't even had one conversation with her. She was pretty far out of my league but she said she wasn't looking for a relationship or anything. I was absolutely crushed and that made me sick for the longest time. A week or two later I had a romantic run in with an older cousin (not first cousin) and I spent the night with her. Was absolutely obsessed with my cousin for the longest time after that. I had a serious relationship with a girl for 3 months when I was 20 but never had PIV sex with her. I eventually broke up with her in retrospect because I wasn't really ready for a relationship at the time and she was a bit older than me and had a successful career and a house and was ready for life. Fast forward a month I finally lost my PIV virginity to some random girl on tinder, who was well out of my league, and for some reason this is the one and only time I didn't obsess over someone. Then came time I was 22 and back on tinder again casually dating people here and there trying not to get stuck. Now, at 23, I feel like it's happening again. I was on tinder not too long ago and after 3 days of having the app again I had just under 30 matches, which is a lot for a guy like me. I eventually matched with this girl I super liked and she was probably the most perfect in my eyes girl I've ever seen. She was just so gorgeous and I messaged her but got nothing back. I stopped caring about any other match but her. She didn't even speak a word to me yet and I was obsessed with her. After a couple days she never messaged back and out of frustration I deleted my account. It took me a day to realize how stupid that was and I restarted tinder again as well as okc. Then I match with another girl (let's call her Jane) on tinder. This girl is probably a 7/10 but I've never met a girl whose interests lined up this well with mine. All I do is lay in bed with my phone plugged in waiting for Jane to text back. When I get like this it absolutely cripples me. I own rental properties for a living so my income is automated so I lay around all day just trying to talk to Jane. I had a date planned with one girl on okc and one girl on tinder but I cancelled one and ghosted the other because I only wanted Jane. Jane and I ended up going our separate ways.
Why the hell am I like this? I honestly feel like a mess. My life feels so empty and worthless but I tell myself it gets better if I have someone. I don't know what's wrong with me? What mental issues I might have that make me behave like this. Even 1 comment on this would be appreciated. Please.
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