So, I dated this one chick from school as 18y old. We liked each other like hell at the time, this led to deep, deep love, at least for me. Pretty sure she also was on the same level that I was on.
BUT. I screwed it up, because of my low self esteem at the moment. Long story short, I did get too jealous and "protective" and in a kind obsessive. Never felt like that before.
And when the shit hit the fan, and we separated, I broke. Cried for days. At the same time saw the errors in my behavior.
We still followed each other on social media**
Couple of years later, I was "Finn-drunk", like really, really drunk. And I sent these voice messages to her on FB. (I havent got the guts still to this day to listen to them, (im not even sure if i deleted them)). And the next morning she reacted to these messages with the red ?? and !?
In the morning I just replied that I'm sorry, that I surely had drunk too much yesterday, might even had said goodbye, because of the shame i was in + plus hangover.
Still. She never deleted me from her social media. Everytime I stumble on her post or story, I fall in love again. It's really remarkable. There's just something in her.
Now I'm older and I would never walk on the same mines and do the same mistakes I did those years ago. I would treat her right and I would do my very, very best in every situation.
The BiG question is: Should I leave her alone, even unfollow her?
The smaller questions are: -Should I straight ask for her Snapchat in IG dm and via there little by little gain her trust by snapping ordinary stuff from my life. Showing that I'm a changed person.
-Should I little by little talk to her via IG dm and later ask for her Snap.
Or WTH should I do?? 👻🤔
I still get butterflies, even from reading her name. Goddamnit.
Thankful for all answers and suggestions!
Take care everyone!
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