Hello guys,
First time posting in this sub but I could use some help please
I feel a bit silly since I am in my late 20s and still have no clue on how to deal with a simple situation like this ...
I, 29 (F) have the tendency to use sex to avoid romantic feelings because sex to me is just something purely physical so I'd never get hurt emotionally. I had been burned couple of times and never seem to recover fully so I admit there are some insecurities that I need to work on.
There is this guy friend (30M) of mine that I've always liked but would never thought to get intimate with because the fear of losing him as a friend, let's called him Jeremy. Jeremy and I have known each other for over a year now and despite there were times when I thought the possibility of him liking me back, we were just platonic. He also knows quite a lot about my dating/sex life because deep down I thought by exposing myself, he'd never want something more with me anyway. Our friendship was a strange one too, we would go out to get food or drink, hang out outside, but never in each other's places.
Then couple of weeks ago he came over to mine for the first time, everything was fine till later at night we ended up snuggling each other (it was his move first) so I leaned in for a kiss and he kissed me back. It was amazing, I've always liked him, but I was scared and unsure if this was the right thing to do. It almost feel like all the hard work I've done in the past to suppress my feelings were all for nothing. He felt the same too, 'Oh... I am not sure' he said, and we paused. The rest of the night was just in between kissing and pausing, to the point that sexual tension was so high and I was ready to just go for sex since the friendship is kinda ruined anyway but he pulled back in the end.
He said he needs to think about this and assure this is the right thing to do. He does not want to ruin our friendship either. This whole thing is very new to me, first of all I don't usually befriend with someone that I am that attracted to, but I guess there is always the first time. Also, my confidence took a shot because to me, guys almost always want sex so I feel quite embarrassed of throwing myself to him and not getting anywhere.
We chatted a bit after this and the conversation was light but we haven't talked about what happened, I doubt we will in the near future. We will meet again soon but gosh I am just so anxious and scared that something would change between us. What if he is awkward about us hanging out in the future? Does he like me or it was just like 'a moment' thing? I guess by posting here I am seeking some advice on how to deal with this situation on how to act when I see him next. I apologise of sounding like a complete mess but I am usually not like this I promised.
Any thoughts are much appreciated!
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