My background story: I (25M) would consider myself generally pretty successful in life. Finishing my PhD degree next year, I'm fairly good looking and tall, athletic, lots of hobbies like sports and music, good and deep friendships. Most people who know me, are telling me, I'm having my life together and could have all the confidence and any girl in the world.
Despite this, I'm still struggling with a lot of anxiety in social situations, in particular around attractive girls. It's not really an issue, once I personally know the girl and have talked to her. But on most days, there's this anxiety and low self esteem once I leave the door and go outside, which makes it extremely difficult for me to even approach girls. I've done it a couple of times in the past though. They were taken, but had always positive reactions, which gave me at least some positive outlook and confidence for maybe one or two days. Also dated lots of girls in the past, but with increasing standards it gets more and more difficult, because I can't solely rely on girls approaching me (like in the past) or using tinder.
I also never feel good enough , because I always have this thought that girls don't like me, because I'm not confident enough. On top of that, I'm figuring that most attractive girls are already taken, wouldn't want to be approached by me, so there's no point in doing it anyway. I'm so stuck in my own head all the time, which even leads me to daily suicidal thoughts.
I've been going to therapy for 1.5 years and been working particularly on my self esteem for about half a year. At the moment I'm even attending 3 therapists at a time. I'm trying to stop my negative thinking, replace with a more positive, realistic view of my situation and re-evaluate my fears. We are also working on my childhood. But I always have the feeling that I don't really improve a lot and I'm loosing more and more hope that something will ever improve. I feel like I'm also wasting my whole life and time will run out. I will end up old, without any attractive woman and that's it.
TL;DR got everything in life, looks, friends, career, hobbies, but struggling a lot with self esteem, negative thoughts, depression, anxiety around girls and eventually suicidal thoughts. Can't seem to get out of my own head and approach women, despite working on it through therapy
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